the perfect one

it is kind of indicative that I have been thinking in iamx quotes incessantly, for no apparent reason

http://www.iamx.eu/blog/?p=738#comment-79



'no such thing as 'clear water',
no such thing as 'clinical',
no such thing as 'left to chance',
no such thing as 'impartial stance''

You have encapsulated many of my thoughts and feelings.
I have for some time now been lingering around a breakdown in my head,
and reading about your journey of this past phase has made me more positive about this idea.
About the necessity of breaking down when it becomes unbearable to
carry on with the sick, unhealthy, self-destructive ways.
About how sometimes it is justified to become overwhelmed with
all sorts of debilitating and often humiliating and shameful mental
and physical symptoms.
About how a breakdown can be transformed into a breakthrough.

Without any fangirl feeling, sometimes you have slipped into my mind, and I have found myself
wondering what you might be going through.
As you yourself also said, it helps to see you are not the only one
feeling, and thus being, all messed-up.
I will use this writing and all that your art has given me so far
to try and regain my ability to become the whole, healthy being
I once was and I believe should deserve to be again.

Thank you for your inspiration.
Wishing you all that you wish for
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