unimportant

i am my own most important person - and no one else's
to the extent that most of my so-called closest friends,
let alone family members, cannot remember my birthday

it's my special day and no one else's

still, the hardest part is when your mother, who congratulated
one day earlier as well as on that day, comes to ask you if you
are going out to celebrate with your friends, and all you do is
quietly answer 'no'.

..but how come?..
..just no..

so useless, so irrelevant, so insignificant