good insight

down to my astonishing intelligence (of course), a sort of a negative intelligence (unfortunately)
i truly fear of becoming an astronaut and never return to the solid surface again.

"if acted out, often leads to behaviors which are abnormal and/or out of character, although perhaps understandable in the light of the delusional beliefs"

perfectly clear to me.
now, how do i get this knowledge trasmitted to them?
possibly, i won't.

"individuals who know the patient observe that the belief and behavior are uncharacteristic and alien"

and that's where you're wrong, cause it's become a part of me.
alien.
destructive, aloud, raging idiot.
too bored and probably too self-centred.
i can point it out now quite fairly that the otherwise promising conception of
individualism and idealism, intertwined has gone dangerously too far.
and now it's painful and i'm losing my sense of humour to it
shame on me!

destroy this city of delusions.
reality is always better, even if not.
i'm becoming an alien to myself as well.
i deserve the best, but then again, judging by this, others deserve perfection.
cause no one deserves to be put through my hell.
i'll get what i deserve, as usual, and right now, it should be something of a kick in the face or getting totally beaten up or maybe some parental care and familial love.
maybe, them both, in this particular order.