i wish

this fear never came back
cause i've thrown it away and i just don't want it back.
i wish there was someone to talk to.
sometimes panic hits me from the behind when i don't expect it.
but i accept it.
so please, i'm asking you once again to leave me alone
i hate nights
i want to hear some bedtime stories + siblings around me

no, i'm not out of reach for improvement
no, i don't enjoy messing around with these immense amounts of
utterly useless
bullshit that is required for my taking a step
frwrd in education
and
yes, i'd love to live off my own money
yes, i'd love to be aspiring to make it an easy living
fuck yeah, i want to be summer itself with it's crowdy cometoghether-
devilmaycare attitude, music music more music and staying up late for
the right reason.
i want my festivals and all those places that seem so far for the time being