in vain

'the most important consideration for the individual is the fact that he or she is an individual—an independently acting and responsible conscious being ("existence")—rather than what labels, roles, stereotypes, definitions, or other preconceived categories the individual fits ("essence").'

this is my thought from early afternoon, and discovering it elsewhere than inside my head just adds up to the feeling that I utterly hate the fact
every seemingly original and significant notion I have in mind has been thought and put into words -far more precisely and effectively- before me.

to make things nicer, even this one has been said before me, right, mr. corner.
'if you think you're doing something special, it's been done...so just think dumb'
another reason to earn a living by staying entirely in my comfort zone. just pleasure, no pain.
and I said I didn't like playing chess for not being into using my brain that way, and I'll stick to that.
and who said no pain, no gain.
should be modified to no pain, just gain.
a also said good things don't have to have a bad start. now, it made me think as to what's considered to be right, what's wrong. because sometimes I seem to lose track of which is which; being used to bad circumstances and making or at least trying to make yourself believe it is good circumstances might leave you perplexed, but I guess, that is the essence of a disorder. have to make things clear and straightforward.
feels like I've managed to put my whole day into these rambling sentences, thought-wise.
thinking is useless, shutting myself down now for good.
or is it just not having them shared with and understood by someone all the time? m a y b e