this

was the first time for quite some time
that my hands are not frozen
and possibly i'm not going to sleep in the common room
but in my own one
(i'm not sure if i'm brave enough to take my bed, though so
probably i'm going to test the floor)
i need to be separated from all these abnormal behaviour happenings
my language constructuon is getting worse by the second
but my willing to do the right thing is just getting better.

i do not fear oblivion
the only thing i do fear is fear itself
but as i happen to feel massive at the moment
(my fingers have this warmth inside them)
i don't think i can ever again be afraid.
all this sounds truly lame but i'm well aware of
the serious nature behind it.