i

don't really think it could get any worse so i guess it's gonna be all fine in a blink

and she's sitting there and she's reading
this really arduous magazine article about
a third world country that she can't
even pronounce the name of
and she's feeling very bored and very despondent
then suddenly there's this huge mechanical failure
and one of the engines gave out

this

was the first time for quite some time
that my hands are not frozen
and possibly i'm not going to sleep in the common room
but in my own one
(i'm not sure if i'm brave enough to take my bed, though so
probably i'm going to test the floor)
i need to be separated from all these abnormal behaviour happenings
my language constructuon is getting worse by the second
but my willing to do the right thing is just getting better.

i do not fear oblivion
the only thing i do fear is fear itself
but as i happen to feel massive at the moment
(my fingers have this warmth inside them)
i don't think i can ever again be afraid.
all this sounds truly lame but i'm well aware of
the serious nature behind it.

down in a rabbit hole

the sun turns us to stone
it's a cloudy day
still can't go home
open our back cellar door
til we see the moon
we're invisible

no one ever takes the garbage out
a new kid gets dare to touch the house
he runs back only to announce
there's no one home..

does he paint the foil with a flame
smear the soda, taste butane
for every fear that can't be named
to calm you down

your heart starts skipping steps
so your farther gone
then you might expect
if your thoughts should turn to death
gotta stomp them out
like a cigarette

baby tell me where'd you go for days and days and days and days

two steps forward, none back

now the only thing i have to escape is boredom
it's easy though, i just have to look around
not that i've got nothing done, it's just i'm too greedy
with instability starting too fade i need to focus on the opposite
and to keep things how they are
i'm optimistic kinda

the party

just gets better and better
on a strict self-harmless-control schedule from
today
until forever

it's been fifteen days

never felt so alone
wanted company so much
wanted to be part of something
wanted to be nor mal

belong belong
what happened

what is out there

volt értelme felkelni
és holnap is lesz
és azután is mindig

o oo

please let me stay
in that condition
i've come away with a panic attack..
and that was more than enough

from now on i will behave

light the bridges

you know something's gonna happen
margaret, my girl, interrupted,
you are too young to die.
just too young, too precious
maybe too precautious to live?
no.
it's where i end and you begin
the ladder is in you
and other significant others + magnificent thoughts
i'm being very much a fake intellectual
but i don't really mind